"I was on the Internet and I joined the IRC channels. I was so desperate for help. I tried many channels and eventually found one and met the people there."

Chat Room Ministry: Testimonies

"Straight away I knew it was different."

Ever since I was about 11, I'd been interested in God. I heard about Jesus on the radio one night and just knew it was for me. I borrowed a Bible on tape (I am blind, so couldn't read a standard one), but my parents didn't like me having it. In fact, they took it back.

I prayed to God and asked him if he was real, but my parents were in the room (I didn't know at the time) and they got really mad. In fact, they got so mad that everything Christian was destroyed, including tapes, music and anything else that was to do with God. So I turned away from god, thinking why would he do this to me?

However, deep down I was searching other religions. I read all I could, got in to Islam, and Mormonism and new age things. The more I searched the more empty I felt. I knew there was something out there.

In 1998, I found what I thought was the answer to life. I discovered the JW's, and I was so excited. I studdied with them for over a year, until a friend came to my house to pray.

Soon afterward I joined the Pentecostal church, where I was told that I had to speak in different languages to be saved, and be fully emerged in water to be saved. I spent a year there, but became very unhappy. All the people didn't seem to love God, and I was totally rejected by the church.

I became totally depressed (this happened many times in my life). I wanted to end my life (I had often felt like this). I didn't see the point of living.

At the time (late 1999) I was on the Internet and I joined the IRC channels. I was so desperate for help. I tried many channels and eventually found one and met the people there. Two weeks after meting them, (I totally rejected Jesus) I thought I would end my life.

A friend they knew was on the net, so I joined and said that I needed Jesus. I told him I'd tried so long to live the Christian life and I couldn't do it. I told him that I believed in the cross and that he died and took our sins. I told him I believe that Jesus rose again and gave us a new life.

Later he called me and went through the sinners prayer. Straight away I knew it was different. The thing I'd been looking for was there.

I can't say the Christian life is easy. Soon after this, I got involved in a wrong fellowship. I was living with them (they were the ones I met on the net) and after a few weeks I got kicked out.

Praise Jesus he had his hand on me. My faith, my entire foundation was almost totally shattered. But I realized that only Jesus could help me, only Jesus could heal me. So I just got on my knees and cried to Jesus, and he heard my cry...

Ever since, I've come to realize that Jesus is the one who lives through us. It is not I, but Christ that lives. And the Life which I live, I live by the faith of Jesus. I can't do it on my own. I try and fail; but Jesus never fails...

I love the lord with all my heart, and all I want is to reach the lost on the Internet. Because many come who really need help. I pray that this will help others come to Christ