She was plotting murder until God overcame a communication problem in a chat room to reach her. She committed her life to Christ instead of killing the person who offended her.

Chat Room Ministry: Testimonies

From Plotting Murder to Trusting God

I spoke with a lady one night who was in a situation in which she and her child were in danger. I was using the nickname "Nurice" and I will call her "Kay." She assured me she was a Christian, and we prayed together for protection. Over the next couple of nights, she assured me that she had peace that God would work things out.

For a few nights I didn't see her, then one night she spoke with me again. Her tone was entirely different. She was plotting to kill the person she felt was a threat to them. "Where is God when I need him?" she asked. "I trusted him. Look where it got me. I am going to take care of it, if I have to do it myself."

I share the log files here in order to demonstrate an amazing situation in which Kay saw this whole conversation out of sequence. I almost left the conversation at one point. Yet God still was able to intervene and take the witness and touch her heart. I will explain more of what happened at the end of the conversation.

I began to talk with her:

<Nurice> God says Kay
<Nurice> I love you
<Nurice> but I will not force you to stay with me
<Nurice> if you will stay in my plan
<Nurice> I promise to get you through this
<Nurice> I will help you
<Nurice> but if you chose to do it your way
<Nurice> you will suffer the consequences
<Nurice> and your child will suffer them too

Kay didn't respond. I began to pray.

<Nurice> Jesus,
<Nurice> I dont know what to say to Kay
<Nurice> she is so troubled
<Nurice> she knows the truth deep down
<Nurice> but she has been wounded so harshly
<Nurice> and she hurts so bad
<Nurice> and I ask you to come here and be with us Lord

I continued to pray, and then I asked Kay if she would ask God to help her. Here is the log of that conversation from my perspective. (You'll see later that Kay was getting a different sequence.) I've edited it slightly to take out anything that might identify Kay:

* Kay cries
* Nurice hugs Kay
<Nurice> Jesus hugs Kay too
<Nurice> Jesus please give Kay the strength to go on
<Nurice> please help her right now Lord
<Nurice> Kay will you ask Him to help you?

[long pause]

<Nurice> Will you turn away from Satan's lies and turn back to Jesus...the only one who has given you any kind of comfort or peace in this?

[no response]

<Nurice> won't you just let go and quit fighting and let God love you and hold you?
<Nurice> no matter how you feel you have failed your child...dont fail here again...the past can be put behind you...your child needs you Kay...your child needs Jesus
* Nurice cries with Kay

[another pause]

<Nurice> Kay do you want help?
<Nurice> Kay...do you want me to leave you alone?
* Kay cries
<Nurice> Kay it is your decision
<Nurice> Jesus says come let me help
* Nurice wants to help too
<Kay> i cant
<Nurice> :(

[long pause]

<Nurice> You want me to bow out then?

[another pause]

<Kay> yes
<Nurice> God bless you Kay...I will continue to pray for you and your little one.
<Nurice> night
<Kay> no
<Kay> please dont leave
<Nurice> ok
<Nurice> will stay
<Kay> please
<Nurice> I won't leave
<Kay> i want to trust but its hard
<Nurice> You want to give this to Jesus...you are struggling...Satan is fighting for your victory
* Nurice hugs Kay
<Kay> you left
<Nurice> I am still here
<Nurice> I didnt leave
<Kay> i know
<Nurice> who left then Kay?
<Kay> help me Lord <tears> please help me
<Kay> i need you
<Nurice> Jesus we come together, we cry to you...help Kay
* Nurice hugs Kay
<Nurice> Kay Jesus has heard your cry...he says yes yes yes
<Kay> why
<Kay> dont go
<Nurice> I am not leaving
<Kay> i dont want to do the wrong thing
<Kay> what is going on

At this point I realized that we were experiencing what is known as "lag." This is a situation where servers get so congested that instead of receiving an instant response, it is sometimes over a minute before you get a response back from the person you are talking to. What this meant was that Kay was getting my efforts at communication totally out of order with her responses.

One is reminded of the tower of Babel where God confounded language, or the second chapter of Acts (Acts 2:6) when God enabled the disciples to speak in other tongues so that each heard them sharing the Gospel in his native language. God was able to use even a our confounded communication to turn her heart from plotting murder to crying out to him for help!

In spite of the lag, I was able to open up a different type of conversation with Kay, known as DCC. This provides a bit more stability when things get shaky. I talked with Kay about her faith in Christ, and she expressed uncertainty as to whether she had ever really trusted him. I was able to lead Kay to the Lord that night. After several months, Kay and her child remained unharmed, and she continued to express faith that God would see them through.